Vision

Come with me for a moment.
I want to show you something:

In the corner of a room in Heaven,
there is a window
through which shines
the light of Jesus.
The room itself is
nothing special
as rooms go –
the paint is
pale yellow;
the floor is
polished oak;
there are no
curtains at the
windows.
In that one corner,
there sits a
rocking chair.
It is one of the
old,
big,
comfy ones,
with plenty of
big pillows on it.
In the chair
sits the Father
of us all.
In His arms
is a tiny baby;
He is lovingly
rocking, caressing,
caring for this child.
He meets all the infant’s needs –
food,
clothing,
even diaper changes.

As time passes,
the baby grows
into a child
and does
what children do –
running off to explore,
yet returning frequently
to make sure
Daddy
Is still there.
The child requires
discipline
at times, and it is
lovingly administered
in a way
that will
mold and shape this child
in the proper way.
When the child
falls, or gets hurt,
the Father’s lap –
in the rocking chair –
is still there.
It never
goes away.

More time goes by,
and the child grows
into a young adult.
What the child has
been taught
is now part of
this older one –
character,
personality –
strengths and
weaknesses,
all part of a
work in progress.
Communication with
the Father is
on a higher level now,
with not such a need
for physical reassurance.
Yet, when the need
arises,
the Father is still there,
in His rocking chair.
His lap is never too small,
the child never too big
to sit
and be comforted
and caressed
with healing hands.
While still a parent,
the relationship the Father
has with the child now
includes friendship and
intimacy,
birthed from
experience
and trust
and built
through the years.

The young adult is now
a man.
He can stand on his own.
He can be counted on.
The Father can
use him
to fulfill a purpose,
a calling,
a plan –
one ordained from the start.
Still –
the chair is there,
in the corner
of the room
in Heaven,
and when the man
is hurting,
God is there
to comfort
and heal
and care.

Wait – I can see the man’s face –

It’s you!

©1998

Potential

You have amazing potential
in the eyes of God.
He looks at you
and sees
all you can be
if you will yield
to His leading.

Oh!
The things He has for you…
the blessings,
the anointing,
the joy,
the fulfillment
that waits for you
in the plan of God!

Don’t settle for less
than His best for you.
Hold out
for all His grace provides.
He will touch you, shape you,
mold you, use you, and
bless others through you.

Let Him show you
all He has for you.
Let Him guide
each and every stop
you take.
Let Him touch your heart,
heal your mind,
mend your spirit,
give you all you need
to do
what He has placed
in your heart to do.

Don’t limit His love for you,
His working in you,
His anointing on you,
His blessings toward you.
Keep your eyes on Him.
Make it your goal to
fall deeper and deeper
in love with Him,
seek His face,
live in His presence,
sit at His feet.

Reach for His hand,
take it and
walk with Him
in the direction
He will show you.
For where you would stop,
camp,
even build a house,
He will say,
“Keep going. I have
more for you. Do not
settle for mediocrity.”
Keep dreaming!
Never lose the vision
He has given you.
Keep your eyes on
the prize
and you will find
there is much more
between here and there
than you ever
imagined.
Look for it,
wait for it,
expect it!

It’s there for you.

©1998

Prayer

I prayed for you today.

I prayed that God would
bless you with His power
and touch the very core of your being
with an overwhelming awareness of
who He is.

I prayed for
prosperity,
peace,
creative ideas
and supernatural ability;
that you can do more
in less time
and be less tired when you’re done.

I prayed for favor
as you deal with those
you do business with.

I prayed for
a financial miracle,
a breakthrough
into God-granted abundance.

I prayed that you would
walk in peace and harmony
with His will for your life.

I prayed for
intimacy between you and God
like you have never known.
I asked Him to
surround you,
immerse you,
wash you in His love.

I prayed for
emotional wholeness
and peace.

I found myself
praying over and over
for blessings
to come on you,
rest on you,
stay on you,
surround you,
and follow you.

I prayed you would be blessed
rising up and lying down,
coming in and going out,
as you sleep, and
when you’re awake.

I prayed
for health
and wholeness
and grace
and power
and anointing.

I prayed that God would make
His thoughts your thoughts,
His desires your desires –
and then bring them to pass.

I prayed that
everyone who sees you,
who comes into contact with your,
would know that
the favor
and blessing
of Almighty God
rests on you.

I prayed for a heart
so affected by His love
that it shines right through you.

I prayed for you today –

Like I do every day.

©1998

Precious

You are precious to God.

A long time ago, before the foundation of the earth, He knew you. He knew the circumstances that would surround your birth. He knew about your childhood. He was aware of all you would experience in your life. He knows about the hurts, the disappointments, the hopes and the dreams.
What you have experienced, and what you will experience in the future, is no surprise to Him.

He has plans for you – plans far beyond anything you could imagine. All He asks of you is willingness, yieldedness, and obedience. He will open the doors, set the wheels in motion, bring things into alignment and establish them in such a way that you and those around you will know it has to be a God-thing. There will be no room for doubt.

He desires intimacy with you beyond what you have known before. He desires to bring you into the secret place, where you can revel in His presence and let go of the concerns of this world. He wants you to draw close and get hungry for Him in a way you never have.

God loves you. You have a special place in His heart. He has plans for you – ministry, family, blessing, and prosperity. You have only just scratched the surface of what He has for you.

Press in. Get hungry. Seek His face, and He will meet you. Cling to His word and His promises – they will come to pass.

His timing is perfect. His will is good. His heart for you is blessing. Yield to Him; let Him lead and guide you into what He has in store for you – His child.

©1998

Alone

Silence explodes
enveloping my world
like the mushroom cloud of an atom bomb
now that I am here
without you.

In youth I craved solitude –
the stillness, a lack of expectation,
no mindless chatter to clutter my thoughts….
now, like an old friend who has
outworn his welcome,
its presence dogs my steps
and demands my attention.

The emptiness created by your absence
overwhelms me.
I wander aimlessly,
night flowing into day,
nothing making sense.

There is no reality for me
any more
but the chasm of your loss.

I am alone.

©9-28-2016

Gratitude

Your smile lingers in my mind.
I can still recall the sparkle in your eye
and the sound of your laughter.

Memories comfort me
when missing you threatens
to overtake my heart.

I remember how we laughed
and loved
and gave each other strength
in the hard times…
how much we cherished
not being alone
any more.

We didn’t have it easy.
Our lives were constantly
challenged by circumstances
that could have broken our spirits
or even our bond….
but we had been through worse,
and we knew how precious
our togetherness was,
so instead they made us
stronger.

I look back
and think of the things
you did for me out of love,
things you wouldn’t have done
for yourself –
the vegetable garden,
that silly chicken coop –
and I realize you did those
because you wanted to show me
how much I meant to you.

I hope you understood
how much your love changed me.
I hope you knew being with you
made me a better person.

Thank you for loving me.

©4-10-2018

Interment day

The silence was palpable
as I placed your ashes in their niche.
I wonder –
did they see me kiss your urn
or hear me say, “I love you”?

I should have spoken at the committal ceremony
but I didn’t know what to say.
How can you sum up years of memories
in a 15 minute window?
What could I have done
to show what our time together
meant to me?

You taught me unconditional love,
acceptance without judgement,
sacrifice,
faithfulness,
devotion,
humility,
all parts of what love should be –
the kind I’d never known before.

You helped me accept myself
for who and what I was
instead of feeling like my life
had been a series of failures.

You loved my children as your own
and cherished our grandchildren
as much as they did you.

You were a living example to me
of a godly man
even though you never claimed to be one.
You didn’t have to –
your actions spoke volumes.

There was no way
to put that into words
so I left it unspoken.
Your life spoke for itself
in those who loved you.

©10-23-2106

emptiness

I searched for you in the night
and my hand only met the air.

I listened for the sound of your breathing
but heard my own instead.

I made your favorite meal –
somehow it’s just not the same.

When we were first in love
I remember telling you I’d like to
open you us and
crawl in next to your heart.
Now I feel as if
I’m the one who’s been dissected,
left with a gaping hole in my life,
my consciousness,
my being,
where you used to live.

Sometimes it’s almost unbearable
going through the days without you.
I’m like a robot executing
expected movements without emotion
…….except I miss you
so badly it hurts.

©4-1-2018

simply be

silent tears
wash over my heart,
unseen by those who think
i’m taking this well.

so strong, they say;
so full of faith,
resolve and determination.

what they do not know about
are the hours i spend
staring into the darkness
not knowing what to do next,
whether to stay or go,
wander or settle down,
and how my whole being
longs for the sound of your voice,
the sight of your smile,
just one more time……

i struggle to make sense
of how quickly you were gone.
my whole life is topsy-turvy,
refusing to make sense.

and so,
with the wisdom born of experience,
i will choose
to do nothing
until what I should do
presents itself clearly.

i will simply
be.

©10-1-2016

All I Need

Look at me.

I’m a mess.

Broken, weak, and bleeding, I make my way to the throne of grace.

I stumble over pride, shortcomings, and fear as I crawl to the feet of Jesus.

The cares of life grab at my ankles, demanding my attention, trying to distract me from my goal.

I wonder if I’ll ever make it….

Finally, exhausted and weary, I enter that most precious place – the Holy of Holies.

Everything else fades into the background when I hear the Father’s voice bidding me to come closer.

Burdens lift; encumbrances fall away; cares disappear.

All I hear is His voice.

All I want is His touch.

All I long for is His love.

His grace, mercy, and forgiveness overwhelm me. I fall on my face in reverence and gratitude. Tears flow, cleansing my spirit-man as they carry the dirt and weight of the world away with them. I am refreshed, renewed, and made clean as I submit myself to the all-consuming fire of a Holy and Righteous God.

In the overwhelming silence, saturated by the very presence of God, I am revitalized. He refills my empty cup and the Balm of Gilead flows abundantly over my wounded soul. The hurt, shame, rejection, and doubt are replaced by love, unconditional acceptance, and healing. I know beyond the shadow of a doubt I am right where I need to be. This place is the only source of restoration for my battle-scarred body and strength for the journey ahead.

Most Holy Lord, please let me never forget that all I have, all I am, and all I do relies on You. Let me never place faith in my own ability or wisdom, for You are my sufficiency. Without You, I am lost. In You, I am complete and able to do what You have called me to do.

You are all I need.

©3-30-2018