Monthly Archives: April, 2018

Precious

You are precious to God. A long time ago, before the foundation of the earth, He knew you. He knew the circumstances that would surround your birth. He knew about your childhood. He was aware of all you would experience in your life. He knows about the hurts, the disappointments, the hopes and the dreams. …

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Alone

Silence explodes enveloping my world like the mushroom cloud of an atom bomb now that I am here without you. In youth I craved solitude – the stillness, a lack of expectation, no mindless chatter to clutter my thoughts…. now, like an old friend who has outworn his welcome, its presence dogs my steps and …

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Gratitude

Your smile lingers in my mind. I can still recall the sparkle in your eye and the sound of your laughter. Memories comfort me when missing you threatens to overtake my heart. I remember how we laughed and loved and gave each other strength in the hard times… how much we cherished not being alone …

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Interment day

The silence was palpable as I placed your ashes in their niche. I wonder – did they see me kiss your urn or hear me say, “I love you”? I should have spoken at the committal ceremony but I didn’t know what to say. How can you sum up years of memories in a 15 …

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emptiness

I searched for you in the night and my hand only met the air. I listened for the sound of your breathing but heard my own instead. I made your favorite meal – somehow it’s just not the same. When we were first in love I remember telling you I’d like to open you us …

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simply be

silent tears wash over my heart, unseen by those who think i’m taking this well. so strong, they say; so full of faith, resolve and determination. what they do not know about are the hours i spend staring into the darkness not knowing what to do next, whether to stay or go, wander or settle …

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