silent tears
wash over my heart,
unseen by those who think
i’m taking this well.
so strong, they say;
so full of faith,
resolve and determination.
what they do not know about
are the hours i spend
staring into the darkness
not knowing what to do next,
whether to stay or go,
wander or settle down,
and how my whole being
longs for the sound of your voice,
the sight of your smile,
just one more time……
i struggle to make sense
of how quickly you were gone.
my whole life is topsy-turvy,
refusing to make sense.
and so,
with the wisdom born of experience,
i will choose
to do nothing
until what I should do
presents itself clearly.
i will simply
be.
©10-1-2016
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